Fear of being left behind...

Ever feel like maybe you will fail... That no matter how many people believe in you..your just not going to make it... The love of my life is probably going to get a job soon I can't keep one... What if I never do..what if I flunk of out college... Will I lose her? be left behind?...It scares me..I lay awake thinking about this.... Her and I have talked about the future... My heart says YES!!!! when my brain and head say...these are dreams you're stupid you will never amount to that.. ever... I can't sleep because of this..Looks like I'll be back to therapy again..fuck..I was doing well till i started listening to my head again.. fuck you head...