still angry still depressed still sick

im fucking angry still my dad just started on me about not liking yet another job. fuck him fuck everybody im upset i keep crying on and off all day and it feels like im swollowing glass. If I call in sick tomorrow i know my dad will chew my fucking head off because hes that much of prick i havent had time to spend with m girlfriend in like a week or more and i hate that i feel like were drifting im depressed as hell and i dont have therapy till tuesday so i might end up quiting by then because i just cant handle the stress of it. im overly emotional and my fucking father doesnt fucking understand that. im sick of putting on a face in front of everyone. I hate my father i hate my family. I just want to move out on my own do my sound recording be done with college and just live alone forever. why cant i be fucking normal like the rest of my friends go to work and function i cant do that i end up feeling like shit and crying. i want to be normal but i fucking know that will never happen adn if someone fucking comments with that no one is normal i will fucking rip you in half!